Moving past that Thirst!

Have you ever been hurt that each time you remember, it hurts so deep? Or you've been hurt and it's so undeserved and you felt like taking a pound of flesh? That nasty feeling of revenge that comes when the thought of someone flips through your mind or his/her name is being mentioned around you? I know that feeling; felt it at different times and periods of my life. So many people have experienced being mocked, ridiculed or embarrassed in an unpalatable situation they got tied in and each time they cross-check that incident, they look forward to the day when they'd get to pay back that person in the same coin he/she did or maybe in a lesser coin or much more better coin. I found myself in that situation towards the end of last year. I saw somebody who had pushed me really to the extreme, trying to frustrate and prompt irrational reactions from me in not-too-comfortable situation that would enable me take a more cooler pound of flesh. The memory refreshed itself and there was a huge thirst for vengeance that I wanted to satisfy and then something tells me, EGO, that isn't you. I wanted vengeance so bad and I wanted to suppress it at the same time. I put a call through one of the very gems God has blessed my life with and she helped me through it. Even though the anger never went away for the next two days, I felt great afterwards because I never gave in. Have you wondered what could happen if you decided to satisfy the angst? What if it backfired and you end up being humiliated instead of you humiliating the other? The efficacy of the word 'let bygones be bygones' isn't in the saying but in the acting. It is never an act of weakness but an act of maturity. It is never easy to do but it's worth it when it's done. Never worry about what would become of that person who had hurt you. Stop thinking about what you'd do if he/she needs your favour or you cross paths in life. We do have these sayings, 'I hope we don't cross paths', 'I hope we don't have any favours to do each other', 'I hope she asks for forgiveness', 'I'd never forgive him/her.' All these sayings are so unnecessary and the earlier we stop waiting for them to seek forgiveness, the better we'd be with ourselves. Has someone offended you badly to the point where you wait for karma? Move past it! Forgiveness isn't for the offender but for you to be at peace and stop feeling miserable and furious! Remember, "hurting people, hurt people!" Have a lovely Tuesday! EGO(y)